Hard day

Today was okay really, it was tonight that got a little harder.  Maybe it was because my kids kept asking me what was wrong over and over again.  Finally I inquired, "Why do you all keep asking me what's wrong?  I'm fine!"  Shelbie and Sam took my hands and led me to the bathroom mirror, "Have you looked in the mirror lately?  What's wrong with your eyes?"  Oh, then I saw the dark, shadowy circles dragging my face down.   The nerve of these kids!  Just kiddin'! I'll admit, I'm a little tired but what da ya do? 
      We had our usual ups and downs the dreaded conversations of life and death.  After I got home from YW, I took Spencer on a little drive to finally explain to him what is happening with his sister.  I tried really hard to spin it in a positive light but he didn't take it so well.  Of course he is scared, how could he not be.  We talked alot about preparing spiritually for whatever comes our way.  I don't know what the outcome of this will be.  We have been in stickier situations than this when catastrophe seemed to be lurking ever so close yet here we all are.  I like to think this is not the beginning of the end for Shelbie, I know this is going to turn around. 
      The job at hand is to teach the kids how to be spiritually prepared and strong so that when bad things happen they will only bend, not break. It was really nice to have that time with Spencer.  Boy do I have my work cut out for me!  There just aren't enough hours in the day to accomplish it all. 
      Thought I would wrap up this day with the lyrics to this song.  No matter what, God is good!

"Praise You In This Storm" by Casting Crowns

I was sure by now
God You would have reached down
And wiped our tears away
Stepped in and saved the day
But once again, I say "Amen", and it's still raining

As the thunder rolls
I barely hear Your whisper through the rain
"I'm with you"
And as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the God who gives
And takes away

And I'll praise You in this storm
And I will lift my hands
For You are who You are
No matter where I am
And every tear I've cried
You hold in Your hand
You never left my side
And though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm

I remember when
I stumbled in the wind
You heard my cry to you
And you raised me up again
My strength is almost gone
How can I carry on
If I can't find You

But as the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain
"I'm with you"
And as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the God who gives
And takes away


I lift my eyes unto the hills
Where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord
The Maker of Heaven and Earth


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