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Adventures in Car Trouble

Yesterday, I finally got my car fixed.  Sort of fixed.  I can't afford the $1500 bill yet and really could only afford to fix $400 of that turned into $700.  Oh well, my credit card company and I are now besties...

So, all weekend, that darn car was leaving me in a lurch and not starting.  It was so frustrating and my problems were compounded with pouring rain.  I would have just walked or rode a bike but my arthritis with the rain and cold was not going to have it.

Every time it wouldn't start, I would sit there and pray mightily and explain that I had to get to work, I had to get here and there...Then, with a deep breath that waited to exhale, I turned the key...

click...click...sputter, spew....then the engine turned over and began roaring again!  I backed into every parking stall just in case it had to be towed.  Thankfully, I made it through the weekend.

When I took the car in to my favorite shop, Clair and Dees, the guy at the desk checked with the  mechanic to make su…

Rigmarole

This is week 8.

If you've been following the medical drama, you will know that this is the week that our clinical testing should be back, if it isn't already.

I thought I would be chomping at the bit to get to Seattle and hear the word, the final word but it's not really happening the way I envisioned it.

The whole process has left me completely worn out and more frustrated than anything.  So many things are not right and it just makes me cranky.

I called to Seattle to see about getting appointments scheduled, keeping in mind the last conversation I had with them at Christmas.  They said they had a team of doctors that would meet with us and provide us with counseling.  Well, it doesn't seem like that is the case.  She made it sound like we would just be meeting with one doctor for a total of one hour.  That is completely different than the picture that was painted 6 months ago.

So, I'm in a quandary.  I just don't have it in me to drive to the other side of…

Easter fun

I am a bit behind on blogging.  We had a great week with my parents so blogging took a backseat for the week since I had other things going on.

We did all sorts of great things this week.  On Sunday, we colored our eggs.  It turned into a contest of sorts and my kids accused me of trying to show them up.  We had a great time.  On Monday, we brought back an old family tradition of rolling Easter eggs.

We headed to the park and took turns rolling our eggs.  The point is, they roll into each other and the shells crack.  Once we had cracked all the eggs, we had a picnic.  It was really a lot of fun, much more fun than I remember it being when I was little.  We laughed and laughed and enjoyed all the people walking by thinking we were half baked!

Tuesday, we all took the day off and went to Jackson Hole.  It was nice just escaping this town for the day and being surrounded by the mountains, fresh air and lots of fun shops.












We really enjoyed having my parents here.  The kids love the extra…

Being the Boss

Sometimes, you just gotta be the boss!!  That's right...own it!



So, a few weeks ago, Sam was inquiring about birthday gifts for his 16th birthday coming right up!  He has had his eye on a long board at Zumiez for quite some time.  Not a day goes by that he doesn't find a way to work this long board into a conversation.  He hums and haws and beats around the bush until he finally comes out and says...

"Mom, your hair sure looks nice today!  Are you doing something different with it cause if so, it's working.  Definitely working...(This is how my boys suck up to me...always!) So, by the way, you going into IF anytime soon?  Ya know, I think that long board is still in the window there at Zumiez.  I thought I might mention that it's on sale too and that works out great since my birthday is coming up."

Of course, I act all poor and needy and give him the spiel about how I need to pay bills from getting so far in debt from unemployment and he has a homemade long b…

The Fixer Upper

I recently had an epiphany.

I am a fixer upper.  That is my official title I am giving myself...

Spencer wrote home this week and he is sick.  This is the first time on his mission that he is "Sick for real!"  If you know Spencer, you know he doesn't let much of anything get him down and he has to be really sick before he will stop to take a nap or rest or even disrupt his day with a doctor appointment.

The interesting thing is, on Sunday when I wrote him.  I felt impressed to include in the last line, "I will be praying for your health and to overcome any obstacle that comes this week." I don't normally say that.  So, when I found out that he really is sick, I wasn't super surprised.  I know that Heavenly Father is going to watch over him because of the prompting I received.

This is my first time with him being gone that I realized there is nothing I can do.  It's a pretty hard place to be considering I'm the fixer upper...the one that likes…

This is juicy...

I want to buy a juicer.  Just a juicer to juice juicy things.  I am not interested in drinking my carrots or celery.  I'm not interested in juicing peanuts or avocados or any of the other crazy things people load into a juicer.  Incidentally, just for fun, I Googled if you can juice an avocado and the answer is NO.  In case you were wondering...but apparently, people have actually tried it!!! Ha ha ha....Those crazy juicers!  That's the juiciest tip you will read here!   ANYHOO...

Off I go to Amazon because...they have an awesome collection of everything you need and a bunch of stuff you really don't need but think you need.  I'm beginning to think after my 10 min. of window shopping that I really don't need a juicer.  Mostly because...you can't just buy a simple juicer!!!  I'm exhausted and in the effort I made in trying to process just page one of options...I could have eaten a whole orchard of lemons!

Here's what I'm up against...

Do you want an …

Humbled

This has been an interesting week full of drama and service and lots of work!   I wasn't sure I would make it through with my head above the water but I did.

It's no secret that things have been really hard around here.

I have often thought, and even said, that I think life is harder since Spencer left.  I have to search longer and deeper for the blessings that everyone talks about, who has a son or daughter out on a mission.  Then I thought, maybe the blessings are in seeing my son grow so much in the gospel and discover what true happiness is.  That has been a tremendous blessing.  The blessings are there and plentiful...just different from what I was expecting.  And, the fact that Satan can't seem to leave us alone for one single minute, testifies to me that maybe we are on the right track.

This week, I got a beautiful letter from Spencer.  His letters are so tender and so full of gratitude for being raised in a good family that just did our best.  We are far from per…

Good for the soul

It has been such a whirlwind of a week.  My friend that I was helping to tend to, passed away on Monday.  As always, it was sad.  From the time she was diagnosed with Colon Cancer to her passing, it was just 12 short days!  12 days!!

I had another friend who had a baby last week so between meals to the new arrivals and meals to the departing, I have been busy but it's the kind of busy I like.  It's good for the soul.

Even though it has added to my load, it has not exactly felt like a burden.  It's the kind of additional work I like because it stops my head from worrying about a hundred other things.  Nothing like helping someone else with their problems.  I think the funeral will be very hard on Friday since I will be participating in the music and that is always a really hard thing for me to do but since the family asked...

I got a letter from Spencer this week, a hand written letter...that is also good for my soul!  I don't know how I lucked out with the kids I have…

Hard and Bad

Is there a difference between these two sentences...'It's really hard.' or 'It's really bad.'

I have often said, "Life is hard right now.", "We are struggling."  I have even been known to say..."Life sucks!" However, I have never said, "Life is bad."  Ever.

This week, I ran into a friend at the store and she asked about the kids.  Well, the kids have had a rough week.  We have been in and out of the hospital, Sam has a badly sprained finger, nausea, vision loss off and on and to top it all off, I have been a really crummy mom without an ounce of patience... so...it's been hard.  Well, I told her, "It's been a tough week."  She politely asked in what way so I proceeded to tell her.  Honestly, to her, it probably just sounded like word vomit.  To me, it was probably word vomit too, but for some unknown reason...I keep trying to find validation and understanding and part of me thinks, if I use enough words…

The Dying, Brene Brown, and other happenings.

Nothing like spending time with the dying to finish off the week.  Seriously.  I am being very serious when I say that there is something so profound to be standing in the room of someone so close to the gates of Heaven.

I have been privileged to stay at the bedside of some very valiant and special women as they passed from this life to the next. Just in the past two years, I have watched 3 of my close friends pass away.  Without a doubt, each experience has been Holy.  Without ever experiencing it, you would think that the sadness hangs heavy in the room but sadness doesn't even dare, darken the door of one dying.  Fear itself steers clear in that moment when the inevitable is embraced.  I feel like this opportunity to be with my friend is a gift, a good gift from God. I learn so much and grow closer to Heaven.

The room fills with humility.  Reverence for life, the gift that we often take for granted washes over you.  The connection to God is undisturbed and the feelings of his …

Every Life...

I like this thought and need to remember that every life has good things and bad things, even my life.

You know what?  There have been a lot of good things, all mixed up in the rotten things.

For starters...I have the best kids.  Kids that are quick to accept an apology and who might be the only ones who understand the mood swings of this road we are on.

I have a missionary.  I have a missionary who thinks he is in Heaven.  A missionary who worries about his mission being over too soon...that's how much he loves it.

I have work to do that is challenging and fills up the time and pays the bills.

Despite the daily health challenges and moments that pass when the kids are super miserable, they pass.  The bad moments pass and everyone bounces back and for the most part...considering their situation, they are doing pretty good.

We have each other.  It's true what they say, the family that struggles together, stays together...oh wait, I'm not sure if anyone really said that b…