Never thought it would happen
As I finished up the last of the 'to do' list, I couldn't help but feel like this is a much harder trip to get ready for physically and mentally than the ones in the past. Perhaps it's because this one holds potentially more answers, more diagnosis. My response when people say, "Wow, that's a big thing you guys are going to have to do." has always been, "Oh, we are use to it, it's just the way it's always been."
As I uttered those words, today in fact, I knew in my heart I was lying. I never get use to this. I never find pleasure or joy in this and it takes every ounce of mental effort I have to get through it. One person even said, "Well, have a good trip, sounds like lots of fun!" At first I thought he was joking, then I thought he just didn't know what was going on though I am pretty sure he did and then I just decided to stop wondering why that comment seemed so incongruent and laughed and said, "Ya, it's going to be awesome!" AWESOMELY EXHAUSTING...NOT FUN.
Actually, I do hope to do one fun thing with the kids while we are there, maybe just before we come home when they can walk around without too much pain. They have always begged to go to the aquarium. We had a chance to earn a little extra money this week by weeding the townhome complex where we live so that is our Aquarium money.