You're Never Too Old To Learn

On Sunday, someone at church said to me, "Kathy, when is it ever going to end for you?"
"Well, I guess when I figure out what I'm suppose to be learning and actually learn it."  Then I chuckled cordially and wandered down the hallway because, really, it was probably a rhetorical question and I'm quite certain she didn't have time to hear my real answer.

To be honest, I don't really have a good answer for her but as I have pondered on this question, I guess my sarcastic answer might not have been too far off. 

I learn something new about trials, God and how I respond to the various challenges we are faced with everyday.  Not a day goes by that I don't have some sort of 'ah ha' moment when something makes sense and a connection is made. I see why one trial or experience in the past prepared me for a situation now.  I see the big picture and I thrive in those moments...they are so energizing to me.   I'm not sure if I'm a slow learner or if this is typical. 

This morning, as I made Spencer's lunch and sent him off to work, I thought of how good he looks this morning.  He is getting some color back in his cheeks, his fever is gone and some energy is back.  His cough is much worse but that's to be expected I'm sure.  What I'm getting at, is that I heard the word pneumonia and all of a sudden thought the worse.  Long, drawn out nights of breathing treatments, high fevers and finally, an extended hospital stay.   While we did have to go through some of that, it really wasn't too bad and I recognize what a great blessing that is, especially for someone with such a broken immune system. 

I think we have so many preconceived notions about what a trial is going to be like before we even give us or God a chance to prove ourselves in that challenge.  I approach it with defeat and fear.  Not the best way but nevertheless, a human way.  I always tell myself after these moments of understanding and reflection that I will do better with the next trial and sometimes I do, sometimes I don't.  The fact of the matter is, I probably won't be done with these trials until I have learned all I need to learn and whether or not my learning curve is slow or fast, it makes no difference, it is what it is and I am probably right where I need to be for now.   Here's to more trials!  I know they're coming so I may as well buckle up for the ride.


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