Sufficient for the day

Yesterday, was a particularly difficult day and it sort of caught me off guard.  I guess after doing the mental and emotional calisthenics that we have been doing for an extended period of time, I was more exhausted than I realized.  I spent a lot of time just thinking about things and did some reading before going to bed at a very late hour. 

I read a passage in Matthew, a common phrase reminding me to 'consider the lillies'.  I've read that passage a million times, it has been a favorite since I was a teenager.  It starts out, "take no thought for your life, what ye shall eat, or what ye shall drink..for your Heavenly Father knoweth that ye have need for all these things."  It concludes by saying "take therefore no thought for the morrow; for the morrow shall take thought for the things of itself."  I really needed to be reminded of that.  I spent so much time worrying about a job, health insurance, financial issues, how I will pay for all these medical expenses, keep everyone happy and sane I was getting overwhelmed. 

I don't know how everything is going to work out.  I'm not sure how I will work and still take care of the kids.  I don't know how the bills will get paid today.  To look at the situation on paper, it is impossible and hopeless and if I worked 80 hours a week, it would still not be enough.  I need to do only what is sufficient for today.  The lillies don't do anything but stand there and grow.  The birds don't sow and the birds don't reap yet, they are taken care of.  Today, I am going to do only what needs to be done for today.  Though it includes a list of chores and errands, I will be glad to get the trivial things done that have been nagging me for months.  Manage what I can, let everything else go. 

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