The very word alone, sounds an awful lot like 158/95...

Rising blood pressure.

It's an ugly word.  It sounds dissonant, disturbing and incompatible- not to mention, unrelenting!

I had to go to the doctor to get my cardiology tests back times...they had not been read by this afternoon so...I wait some more.  And, waiting isn't stressful at all.

My blood pressure is still high!!! Not cardiac arrest high but the highest side of normal. And, that isn't stressful at all.

My doctor said, "Kathy, you have to get rid of some stress in your life.  You have too much going on, something's gotta give."

I wouldn't have to work another day in my life if I had a dollar for every time someone told me this. And then, maybe life wouldn't be, however, last time I checked, dollars aren't attached to well-intended advice.

So, I ask...How do you get rid of stress?

Is eliminating stress sitting around napping?  Doing nothing? Shopping? Eating? What?  Cause I've tried that this week with the kids being gone.  I've tried all of that and apparently, that isn't the answer.  The stress is still there, you are just ignoring it.

So, then I tried, sitting in the hot tub. Three nights in a row.  Nope.

Meditating.  Nope.

Getting Creative. Nope.

So, I don't know.  I don't have the answers.

I wish there was a recipe or something.  Certain steps to take, ingredients to mix, minutes to bake and VOILA!!!  No stress.  But apparently, there isn't.

I asked the doctor, "Tell me how to eliminate or manage stress?  Quit some jobs?  Then we don't eat and I lose our house.  Sell my kids?  Dumb question.  Solve the mysteries of the Universe?  I'm working on that!  Go out and find a rich old man to take care of us?  I'm working on that!! (Just kidding! Really!) Hire a maid? I am one. Hire a cook? Pointless, no one eats around here.  I know...Go to Hawaii?"

At this point, I'm trying to keep from crying, he's trying to keep from crying so we both laugh awkwardly.  He gets my point.  He's a nice guy.  Still, there are no easy answers.

If stress could just decide to be black...or white.... or concrete.  That would be much easier!  I'm not a mind reader.  I don't know what will make stress happy!  Apparently, it hasn't enjoyed all the wonderful things I've done for him this week to keep him content.

So, I tossed my hands in the air and took on two more jobs today!  If stress is about to kill me, I may as well go out with a bang!



  1. I am impressed by the ways you do handle stress--writing can be super therapeutic and laughing and you've got a great sense of humor. I don't have answers on how to cope with stress because I'm terrible at it. I think I walk around completely stressed out most of my life. In fact, when I took a stress management class at Ricks, I was going to get an A- and I went and begged the teacher to reconsider. I couldn't let stress management keep my from my only 4.0 in my life! He gave me the A, but I must say, I didn't deserve it. I didn't learn how to manage stress and I now my jaw hurts when I chew and even when i talk because I clench and grind my teeth so much at night. I think there are just some situations where stress is harder to overcome, like when you don't have control of the outcome. You work so hard and you are doing a great job at all you do. Hang in there! I think you are amazing.

  2. Sonja, that sounds like me! Dumb stress. Life would be so much easier without all this stress don't you think? ;)


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