Can you imagine?

Can you even imagine what it would be like raising these kids?  Can you even imagine what a month of medical bills in this family looks like?  Can you imagine how hard it is to have at least one person sick every week?  Can you imagine what it's like watching yet another procedure, another set back?  Can you imagine how it feels to know that there is a high probability that you will live longer than your kids?  Can you imagine doing this all by yourself?

Can you even imagine what it feels like to live in this family?  I'll tell is humbling. 

I never imagined that I would be the kind of person who would be dealt this deal.  Me, the little girl who screamed hysterically when she heard a siren.  The little girl who wasn't allowed to go see my sister when she got her tonsils out or my other sister when she had a hernia repaired because she just couldn't stop crying, it made her so sad.  Now look at me.  I am pretty comfortable in the hospital, it's like my home away from home and the tears don't come quite as easily. 

Can you imagine or even believe that living in this family is pretty darn cool.  No matter what the problem or trial, we laugh.  I would say that we spend more time laughing at the situation than we do crying.  Would you believe me if I said, I wouldn't trade this life for anything?  I wouldn't.

Sure, things are really hard and I would be lying if I said it wasn't sad at times but the lessons we have learned could not have been taught in any other way.  Tonight, I felt an overwhelming feeling of love for my kids.  They are amazing spirits to me.  I just can't believe that I was blessed with such strong kids.  I seriously feel spoiled.  They are my best friends.  There is no one else I would rather spend time with.  Through their trials, they have learned patience and perseverance.  They have learned to trust in God even when it seems that He is no where to be found.  They never stop trusting and hoping.  They have learned to serve and give.  They are grateful for even the smallest improvement, the tiniest gift, a listening ear.  They never ask for too much, they hardly ask for anything.  They never use their illness as a crutch in life, in fact, most days, if you see them out and about, working even, you would never know just how sick and weak they really are.  They just want to be normal, like you.  Can you imagine raising kids like this?  It's pretty amazing. 

Let me share with you just a couple of things that have turned me into a mushy mess of gratitude
 recently.  We finished our basement.  Well, it's almost finished.  Shelbie paid for most of it.  She has been working hard.  At first, we were just going to finish a studio for her but she wanted to finish it all.  As a family, we worked together on all the things we could and had a great time helping this dream come true for Shelbie. It's beautiful and wonderful knowing the sacrifice she made.

Samuel has loved the time he can spend at the gym learning more about his favorite sport, parkour.  It's really expensive.  He has given up a lot of things, you know the creature comforts of an average 14 year old so that he can continue with his classes.  He is always so good to help out in extra ways around the house.  When he sees someone in need, he jumps in to help.  He has really needed new socks.  I haven't had any extra money to buy him new socks.  I felt bad telling him that but he said, "It's okay, I'll just make it work."  We did a lot of washing (I did finally buy some new socks this week and what a smile that brought to his face.)

Both the boys have grown out of their Sunday suits.  Spencer hasn't had a suit for three years, he just wears some dress pants but they don't really fit him.  If I can't even buy socks, suits are totally out of the question.  I have been trying to alter one of Spencer's old suits to fit Samuel but that has been an epic fail.  I think Sam's trousers come up to his knees, it's sort of embarrassing but Sam says, "It's okay, I'll make it work."  Today, when I got home from house cleaning, Spencer said, "Hey, I'm going to go pick up Sam (he was at a friend's house)."
"Where are you going?" I asked.
"It's none of your business." and he left. 
A little while later, Spencer came home.  He had taken his brother to the suit shop to buy him a new Sunday suit.   A brand new Sunday suit!  With his own money. 

Can you imagine what it's like raising these kids?  Can you imagine a month of wonderful experiences that money can't buy?  Can you imagine how great it is to see them supporting each other when one of them is sick?  Can you imagine the number of blessings we receive through all the procedures and set backs?  Can you imagine how a life like this makes every moment we have together so much sweeter?  I can only imagine, it doesn't get much better than this!



  1. You really do have awesome kids. I have loved getting to know Shelbie and hope my boys can have little bit of the relationship that your boys have. Thanks for sharing and helping me to focus on the awesome blessings we all have.

  2. I love reading your posts. As I read them they start out in one direction and then take an unexpected turn. You have the right attitude for the path you are on.
    The one question I have is, don't the boys go to church with the wasband. Can he not see that they need a suit? Is all of his money going to the new wife and baby?


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